wow... almost half a year since i was last here to update anything. guess the laziness caught up in me. oh well. but i sudden need a space to let out or rather scream out. =/ it's basically my recess break in smu. 3 mroe days before sch starts but i m dreading it. a holiday that doesn't really seem like one. week 7 was packed with 5 mid terms and alot of nonsense. week 8 aka recess week was just as bad. meetings after meetings coupled night classes as a result of my current work. and the news of the death of my cousin was blew me off. 28yrs old. still young, unmarried and left his mother alone. the scene at the funeral was just heart wrenching and many griefing could be seen - his mum,my granny,mum,sisters,cousins. i couldnt stop tearing as well. life is full of so many unexpected. really WTH. makes me think that we are all dumb people trying to mug our lifes away n enjoy much less of lives around us. Yet, after i heard of how my cousin died, i really wanted to give the nurse a tight slap. i know i know forgive and forget but u would agree with my stand. How on earth can a patient who is just seeking normal consultation with the doc be more impt than a patient tt is grasping for air, turning pale each passing second. My cousin wanted to live... and could have live. if only the doc had attend to him min before and not after consultation with some fucking tom,dick and harry. He dn deserved this bullshit really. But this is it. life is really unfair.
Seriously, life sucks. i need a good break.

*P.s: To my cousin,wenlong. rest in peace for you will always be remembered in our hearts.