RAH!!!!! what a freaking long week in camp... F***F***F***!!! nights out on monday coz new officers having tekan session... went for dota n had a long tok with kw at night... the following 4 days was crap n we had CO chain of command parade rehearsal n it was hell... i hate marching... wed went ikea to buy stuff for the man mess but have to rush back for photo taking in camp... nite out cancel... thur march again but nite out cancel coz sm ass did not do properly n bsm flew into rage...once again screw up my plans... then fri... parade till 6++pm... book out 8+pm... was suppose to be even later but our bsm kindly let us off... went home rest awhile then went kopitiam for drinks n fried rice with kw! the rest all too busy!!! eh today woke up late in the afternoon n when for tuition at 3pm! had basketball with my cousins before having dinner with my grandfather! ahhh feel back to pangeh hj for dinner coz he was too late in asking!hmm... had a little tok with my dad but yeah he still look down on me... >.< hate it!!! depise all u want ba!!! i really can't be much bother by it anymore... numb tt is the feeling...went hm ard 8+pm... reach hm at 9+pm then meet peewee for servicing of bike... haiz... lately i have been troubled my lots n lots of problem... i m just so down on my luck... sch to choose, $ for university, whether to join safsa or give it up n etc etc... suddenly problems tt i dn usually face just appear like tt... i felt soooo helpless... i m not like kw who had a ambition n he want to pursue it... but even himself faced the decision whether to follow his dream or what... maybe i shld really consider signing on police! it wld be nice... RAH... when if i dn have the police cool factor... LOL TROUBLED TROUBLED TROUBLED... ppl will nv understand me... not even my closest friends n my family... i tink i m just weird... maybe just like y we r born... i m just waiting for the time to come n die... XD fuck tis life damn!